Twittering

Yep, I just sort of reactivated my account at Twitter. I was getting my daily dose of Celeb gossip at Just Jared and I came across this post about Demi Lovato and John Mayer exchanging “tweets”. I thought it was kinda’ cool hearing, or reading, someone’s thoughts in real time. It’s crazy finding out other celebrities having their own accounts. And it’s the real celebs themselves and not some posers or psychos. You would know if you’re following their music and writings for the longest time.

Dave Mathews, Jason Mraz, Mandy Moore, Ashton Kutcher and Neil Gaiman are some prominent peeps I am following right now. I send replies to their posts every now and then, crossing my fingers that they would, in the zaniest way possible, would reply.

Busying myself with Facebook had been helpful since I get replies from my “friends”, and now Twitter. I’ve been trying to comfort myself for the past so so days, with a lot of things going on in my head that I needed even just the illusion that someone is talking back or sharing their thoughts, and also an avenue for me to share my thoughts without hesitations is just what I needed. I don’t know. I feel like I have been pulling myself away from the world. The real world, that is. Getting a lot of not-so-good thoughts about the way you talk, the way to dress and just about every little thing that you do almost everyday wont do one any good. Most of them are intended as a joke, but if you’re getting them almost everyday is another story.

Might stick to Twitter and Facebook and my three blogs for a while when it comes to sharing my everyday thoughts. But I hope I’ll find someone I could talk to and be myself with soon.

♥

Wordless Wednesday – Bisita

Faces

I created a tag in Facebook using this photo. Believe it or not, I spent almost an hour to finish this tag. I was very careful on who tag because, you don’t know whether they would find it offensive or they’ll embrace it. Thankfully, the comments from those tagged were overflowing . Somehow, thankfully I got most of them right.

Then I went into contemplating on why it took me almost an hour to finish the tag. I’ve known most of them for more than a year, but then I still struggled recognizing who’s sporty, the cry baby, the nature lover, the ninja, the cat lover, the shopaholic. :( This all boils down to either:

• I never asked the right questions.
• I asked the right questions, but I didn’t listen carefully to their answers.
• I listened carefully, but never really absorbed what it was that they’re trying to say.
• I forget about things easily.

My conclusion: its a mixture of everything I have mentioned. Most of the time, people perceive me as someone who doesn’t pay attention. But the truth is, whenever someone’s talking I listen to the best that I can, absorbing every word that they say. I remember a friend of mine saying that maybe you keep on forgetting things about other people because I don’t find them important. Then I said that’s not true. But then he still contested that important things are worth remembering. Well, I do agree. But I still end up forgetting things.

What to do in situations like this? Nuninuninu.

Without Warning

Well, not really. Having to deal with the same obvious things over and over ten times throughout one's lifetime is enough to at least downgrade simultaneous vomits and cries with just plain shock. It's 12 freakin' midnight, and here I am still trying to comfort and calm myself to at least had the strength to sleep. My body is numb, but my head is still screaming. I normally would have someone at my side who would listen (or at least pretend) and give one of hundreds of reasons for me to justify things during times like these. 

Having to vomit without a reason for it is not a nice feeling. Or deal with how your body reacts when butterflies on your stomach is transformed into that heavy, excruciating thing that you cannot at least let out. Sadly, I had to deal with this one alone. Swallow it all until the taste only lingers on the tip of my tongue. 

I wish you can feel what I feel right now and stop being so damn insensitive. Being left out is no fun. You jerk.